Post by Carissa Evans on Jun 9, 2007 0:30:26 GMT
Me, Me, Me!
Name: Michelle
Age: 16
Gender: female
The Character
Full Name: Carissa Evans
Picture: look in siggy
Nickname(s): rissa, rissy, carrie etc
Gender: female
Age: 17
Sexual Orientation: straight
Grade: senior
Boarder or Day Student: boarder
Clique: punk/nerd
Classes:
Modern Literature
Spanish
Economics
Calculus
Physics and Electronics
Band
Choir
Personality:
Carissa is a very simple-minded type person. She doesn’t get mad very easily and is pretty relaxed about everything really. She isn’t someone who gets stressed over studies and she just really goes with the flow of things taking each day one step at a time. Though Carissa can seem very nice, kind and quite quiet actually she can be really angry as well and short tempered. When she gets mad she tends to throw tantrums and breaks quite a bit of things and she normally ends up hurting herself in the process. Carissa was normally though a very happy girl as long as she didn’t have anything to do with her parents and family that is.
Carissa is someone that easily can make friends and loves to joke around and just make life a laugh. This is basically because she has lived so much sorrow in her life that she wants to make sure she and everyone else is smiling. There are days when really you probably wouldn’t want to see her because she is such a mess but mostly she just ignores things that bothers her and gets on with her life. She doesn’t need to deal with things that aren’t even worth her time.
Carissa isn’t the smartest one of the bunch though she can do math problems easily and is quite good at writing down her feelings. But when it comes to things like science she struggles and is lucky to even get a passing grade. Its not like she doesn’t try and get good marks or anything in those subjects it just is really hard for her to do so and like everybody else she does have her moments where she just gives up and puts it aside for a later time. Carissa is someone that doesn’t follow a set trend or what people say is cool to do and likes doing things that she likes and not what everyone else around her does.
Carissa is like in love with both singing and playing the guitar. Its like what she lives and breathes for. If your looking for her you have to go to any place music related and you will likely find her at one of these places or just in her dorm practicing. Because Carissa is a strong writer and can put emotions into words well she writes many songs for herself though is very self conscious about them and only the selected few actually get to hear her sing.
Even though she sings up for choir and anything music related she makes sure she doesn’t stand out too much in those classes as she always thinks that everyone will hate her. She has her friends though that are always very encouraging with her singing and tell her she sings beautifully. Carissa had grown up around music since she was just a small child so she grew up with loving it and she couldn’t see herself without music. When she had rough times with her life music was something that she believed got her through with the words that sank right into her soul with different bands. She just loved music in general and would do anything to actually pursue it as a career.
Carissa is a very soft spoken girl and well mannered person. This is probably because of her parents harsh words with her whenever she did something wrong so she always was very self conscious and weak when it came to knowing what she wanted and how she wanted to do it. She always felt as if she was a failure at everything which is probably why she tried all the more harder. Carissa never let anyone see the weakness of her though as she didn’t want questions directed at her and she did her best to remain happy and enjoy each moment and how it played out. She believed that everything did happen for a reason and she was just waiting too see what some of those reasons actually were. She had to be born into this family for some reason, it really wouldn’t have been just to be put out and sad all her life. That is something she believed but never got answers for it.
Appearance:
Carissa is a very petite girl all around. She is really short for her age only reaching about 5’2 the last time she measured herself, she has decided not to even bother checking as it just gets her mad at how short she really is. She believes she has stunted her growth for life from her caffeine addiction that she has had since she was like 12. She never got much sleep at that point so she started relying on caffeine and now look at her the runt of the whole lot of her grade. And to think she is actually a senior. Carissa has a very bright look to her though like she is always happy or something and when she smiles its like she lights up her whole look. Having a perfect shade of a reddy brown hair she is able to brighten up her whole look just from that.
Carissa is very picky on how she looks probably because of how self conscious she is, and she normally can take like 2 hours just to make sure she looks good enough to go out. Every morning she’s up by 5 and even then she just makes it out her dorm with only 10 minutes to spare before class. Carissa doesn’t concentrate though on wearing al the in styles of clothing or all the elegant and glamour stuff for clothing and she likes to stick with more of a punk/ rocker type look to her with a hint of glamour in it so that she still is appealing but has more originality to it. Or at least that’s how she seems to think of it. Carissa tends to wear some make up but not a whole load so that she looks like she’s trying to disguise herself or something. She tends to go for the more natural look and doesn’t apply her mascara or eye liner on too thick or anything.
Carissa is right into the whole accessory thing and she is probably the one person that ahs way too many accessories. She probably doesn’t ever wear the same piece of accessory in a month she has so much. She loves pairing up things so that she looks more attractive to others and is loving the bracelets above everything else. Though definitely has way too many necklaces as well. Carissa is very protective of those things though and she barely lets anyone borrow them or anything as she can be a bit possessive when it comes to the things she owns because she treasures a lot of the things she got for herself and the many gifts she got from others as well.
Carissa has a very nice color of blue eyes but to her there nothing real special or anything. Its like a ocean blue though she finds they don’t really matter. She likes to hide the color of them at time and tends to squint a lot of some reason, and most of her pictures don’t actually have her eyes completely open. Carissa has very nice cheekbones and loves the shape of her face as its slim and has just the right features to add some elegant look to her even when she is wearing just a sweater and a pair of jeans or something. Her skin always looks like its so soft and smooth. This is probably because she spends a lot of time taking care of her skin and making sure she looks perfect.
By the way she looks you can tell she works a lot on her looks but it isn’t like a fake look either and it shows a look of innocence when you look into her face yet has a back of mischief into it as well. Carissa normally has slightly wavy hair not perfectly straight but not in like curls either. She likes wearing her hair in different styles though and doesn’t stick to just one style though she loves having her hair in curls about everything else. Carissa is a very skinny person though as she really isn’t someone that likes food a lot, she has in the past also been hospitalized for anorexia but she got over it and just keeps a constant weight now but she really ahs to watch what she’s eating so that she doesn’t become too skinny again.
Height: 5'2
Family:
Mother- Brianna Evans
Father- Tyler Evans
Brother- Shane Evans[14]
Brother- Daniel Evans [deceased]
Brother- Bailey Evans [18]
Likes:
Dislikes:
History:
Carissa has a very confusing history throughout her life. A lot of it that she actually chose to block out of her memory because it always got her down or upset. Because of having to g to anger management at one point in time she decided that blocking out her past was the best thing she could do. Carissa grew up in the state of Connecticut where both her parents were born and raised. Her father being an exceptionally well known lawyer for the law firm her owned and her mother owning a small flower shop and also helping out with the law firm. When Carissa was just born they had just started up the business so it was really small at the time. Through the years though it became highly successful and they had many posts throughout north America.
Her mother dropped the flower shop business and went to help out her father once Carissa became the age of 5. y this time she had an older brother and two younger brothers. She was probably the closest to the one a year younger then her though through anything as they did everything together. There family was pretty good and loving together up until she reached about eh age of 14. Her older brother had moved into a private school and her younger brother was currently living with there grandparents due to problems at school and needed a change for a little while. They still were happy though, the four of them, her mom, dad, Carissa and Daniel.
Carissa’s parents were barely ever home though so really you could never say that they had a really stable family relationship or anything but they were good at communicating to each other and her mom was a worry wart. She was always calling to check up on things and would be there in a flash if anything was needed. What Carissa didn’t know was the grudges Brianna could actually hold against her for something that shouldn’t have happened. It had been storming out that day, the day the accident came, the day Daniel was killed. Something that Carissa could never forget. Carissa had been told to watch her brother that night as they were going to be in the office late. Of course Carissa agreed like usual. Her brother had asked to go to his friends house that was just down the street so she said he could go and she stood on the porch as he walked off towards his friends house.
In order to get to his friends house he had to cross the street and as he was crossing the street she yelled out to him to be careful and have fun, he had turned then to wave good bye to her and that was when neither of them were actually looking. A car struck him right there. Hit and run, but that was the last smile she saw of her brother. He was hit and left to die in the middle of the street. By the time Carissa called the police and got down there he was barely alive. The guy had completely ran him over without even stopping to help, something that could have saved his life. His last words were not to blame herself, to go have fun and live her life for him as he wouldn’t make it’. Carissa held him while he died, the paramedics didn’t even get there in time to try to save him.
When her mother got home this was when everything changed. She beat the living hell out of Carissa leaving her barely conscious and with bruises all over her body and Carissa’s wrist broken. Her mother blamed Carissa for his death, that it was her responsibility that he should be safe. She got kicked out of the house the next day with nowhere to go. She was a wreck to start with and she then went to her cousins, who lived near them though she was very close to and they were unlike her parents and they took her in. They nursed her back to health but she was by far stable. They put her in many different counseling programs and other programs that would help her get over the grief of losing her brother.
They gave up on her though when she started lashing out at everyone, hurting herself and the people around her and sent her off to Darlington Academy, a place that they had heard was good and was far away from everything that happened, they had told her that it would be a fresh start. It wasn’t for her though, her parents tracked her down, left her death threatening messages, everything. She couldn’t even talk other own brothers in fear of her mother and father hurting her once again. She didn’t do anything at school and slowly stopped eating all together. One of the teachers at the school noticed and hospitalized her for anorexia and got her help for her anger problems.
Carissa was scared of life pretty much at this time but she found refuge in music that she had grown up with, began listening to it again, playing an instrument, singing, she got over most of her grief through music as it helped her cope. Her brothers words came back to her and she was able to live once again. She had downfalls though, many actually, because her parents continued to haunt her through there words, and there phone calls. They always seemed to find a way to hurt her again. And she could do nothing to stop that. Carissa got in touch with her brothers again and she went and stayed with her oldest brother during the summer but she relied on her friends a lot now. She went through life day by day because of what happened though she figures as long as she has goals in life she can achieve a better life then she started out with, she just had to learn how.
RPG Sample:
Celebrity Basis: Becky Lou Filip
Other:-editedbytheadmin-
Name: Michelle
Age: 16
Gender: female
The Character
Full Name: Carissa Evans
Picture: look in siggy
Nickname(s): rissa, rissy, carrie etc
Gender: female
Age: 17
Sexual Orientation: straight
Grade: senior
Boarder or Day Student: boarder
Clique: punk/nerd
Classes:
Modern Literature
Spanish
Economics
Calculus
Physics and Electronics
Band
Choir
Personality:
Carissa is a very simple-minded type person. She doesn’t get mad very easily and is pretty relaxed about everything really. She isn’t someone who gets stressed over studies and she just really goes with the flow of things taking each day one step at a time. Though Carissa can seem very nice, kind and quite quiet actually she can be really angry as well and short tempered. When she gets mad she tends to throw tantrums and breaks quite a bit of things and she normally ends up hurting herself in the process. Carissa was normally though a very happy girl as long as she didn’t have anything to do with her parents and family that is.
Carissa is someone that easily can make friends and loves to joke around and just make life a laugh. This is basically because she has lived so much sorrow in her life that she wants to make sure she and everyone else is smiling. There are days when really you probably wouldn’t want to see her because she is such a mess but mostly she just ignores things that bothers her and gets on with her life. She doesn’t need to deal with things that aren’t even worth her time.
Carissa isn’t the smartest one of the bunch though she can do math problems easily and is quite good at writing down her feelings. But when it comes to things like science she struggles and is lucky to even get a passing grade. Its not like she doesn’t try and get good marks or anything in those subjects it just is really hard for her to do so and like everybody else she does have her moments where she just gives up and puts it aside for a later time. Carissa is someone that doesn’t follow a set trend or what people say is cool to do and likes doing things that she likes and not what everyone else around her does.
Carissa is like in love with both singing and playing the guitar. Its like what she lives and breathes for. If your looking for her you have to go to any place music related and you will likely find her at one of these places or just in her dorm practicing. Because Carissa is a strong writer and can put emotions into words well she writes many songs for herself though is very self conscious about them and only the selected few actually get to hear her sing.
Even though she sings up for choir and anything music related she makes sure she doesn’t stand out too much in those classes as she always thinks that everyone will hate her. She has her friends though that are always very encouraging with her singing and tell her she sings beautifully. Carissa had grown up around music since she was just a small child so she grew up with loving it and she couldn’t see herself without music. When she had rough times with her life music was something that she believed got her through with the words that sank right into her soul with different bands. She just loved music in general and would do anything to actually pursue it as a career.
Carissa is a very soft spoken girl and well mannered person. This is probably because of her parents harsh words with her whenever she did something wrong so she always was very self conscious and weak when it came to knowing what she wanted and how she wanted to do it. She always felt as if she was a failure at everything which is probably why she tried all the more harder. Carissa never let anyone see the weakness of her though as she didn’t want questions directed at her and she did her best to remain happy and enjoy each moment and how it played out. She believed that everything did happen for a reason and she was just waiting too see what some of those reasons actually were. She had to be born into this family for some reason, it really wouldn’t have been just to be put out and sad all her life. That is something she believed but never got answers for it.
Appearance:
Carissa is a very petite girl all around. She is really short for her age only reaching about 5’2 the last time she measured herself, she has decided not to even bother checking as it just gets her mad at how short she really is. She believes she has stunted her growth for life from her caffeine addiction that she has had since she was like 12. She never got much sleep at that point so she started relying on caffeine and now look at her the runt of the whole lot of her grade. And to think she is actually a senior. Carissa has a very bright look to her though like she is always happy or something and when she smiles its like she lights up her whole look. Having a perfect shade of a reddy brown hair she is able to brighten up her whole look just from that.
Carissa is very picky on how she looks probably because of how self conscious she is, and she normally can take like 2 hours just to make sure she looks good enough to go out. Every morning she’s up by 5 and even then she just makes it out her dorm with only 10 minutes to spare before class. Carissa doesn’t concentrate though on wearing al the in styles of clothing or all the elegant and glamour stuff for clothing and she likes to stick with more of a punk/ rocker type look to her with a hint of glamour in it so that she still is appealing but has more originality to it. Or at least that’s how she seems to think of it. Carissa tends to wear some make up but not a whole load so that she looks like she’s trying to disguise herself or something. She tends to go for the more natural look and doesn’t apply her mascara or eye liner on too thick or anything.
Carissa is right into the whole accessory thing and she is probably the one person that ahs way too many accessories. She probably doesn’t ever wear the same piece of accessory in a month she has so much. She loves pairing up things so that she looks more attractive to others and is loving the bracelets above everything else. Though definitely has way too many necklaces as well. Carissa is very protective of those things though and she barely lets anyone borrow them or anything as she can be a bit possessive when it comes to the things she owns because she treasures a lot of the things she got for herself and the many gifts she got from others as well.
Carissa has a very nice color of blue eyes but to her there nothing real special or anything. Its like a ocean blue though she finds they don’t really matter. She likes to hide the color of them at time and tends to squint a lot of some reason, and most of her pictures don’t actually have her eyes completely open. Carissa has very nice cheekbones and loves the shape of her face as its slim and has just the right features to add some elegant look to her even when she is wearing just a sweater and a pair of jeans or something. Her skin always looks like its so soft and smooth. This is probably because she spends a lot of time taking care of her skin and making sure she looks perfect.
By the way she looks you can tell she works a lot on her looks but it isn’t like a fake look either and it shows a look of innocence when you look into her face yet has a back of mischief into it as well. Carissa normally has slightly wavy hair not perfectly straight but not in like curls either. She likes wearing her hair in different styles though and doesn’t stick to just one style though she loves having her hair in curls about everything else. Carissa is a very skinny person though as she really isn’t someone that likes food a lot, she has in the past also been hospitalized for anorexia but she got over it and just keeps a constant weight now but she really ahs to watch what she’s eating so that she doesn’t become too skinny again.
Height: 5'2
Family:
Mother- Brianna Evans
Father- Tyler Evans
Brother- Shane Evans[14]
Brother- Daniel Evans [deceased]
Brother- Bailey Evans [18]
Likes:
- chocolate
- toast
- talking
- caffeine
- the computer
- myspace
- duckies
- anything small and cute
- singing
- playing her guitar
- music in general
- researching random things
- anime
- writing
- getting her own way
- shopping at toy stores
- being around friends
- bunnies
- accessories
- dancing
- spinning around in circles
- drawing with chalk
- finger painting
- running
- tennis
- swimming
- rain
- cold
- wind
- little kids
- making run on sentences
- milk
- sprinklers
- hop scotch
- the zoo
- roller coasters
- trains
- dolphins
Dislikes:
- swearing
- gangs
- her parents
- bad things happening
- summer
- ice
- getting cheated on’
- people talking about others behind there back
- alleys
- science
- elegant clothing
- sitting in one spot too long
- hand writing
- getting lectured
- skipping stones
- falling down
- garbage
- chips
- lions
- paper clips
- spelling properly
- pop
- bad things happening
- sad faces
- popular people
- dry lips
- video games
- bleachers
- hockey
- basketball
- history
- hard work
- time going really slow
- curfews
- her age
- being self conscious
History:
Carissa has a very confusing history throughout her life. A lot of it that she actually chose to block out of her memory because it always got her down or upset. Because of having to g to anger management at one point in time she decided that blocking out her past was the best thing she could do. Carissa grew up in the state of Connecticut where both her parents were born and raised. Her father being an exceptionally well known lawyer for the law firm her owned and her mother owning a small flower shop and also helping out with the law firm. When Carissa was just born they had just started up the business so it was really small at the time. Through the years though it became highly successful and they had many posts throughout north America.
Her mother dropped the flower shop business and went to help out her father once Carissa became the age of 5. y this time she had an older brother and two younger brothers. She was probably the closest to the one a year younger then her though through anything as they did everything together. There family was pretty good and loving together up until she reached about eh age of 14. Her older brother had moved into a private school and her younger brother was currently living with there grandparents due to problems at school and needed a change for a little while. They still were happy though, the four of them, her mom, dad, Carissa and Daniel.
Carissa’s parents were barely ever home though so really you could never say that they had a really stable family relationship or anything but they were good at communicating to each other and her mom was a worry wart. She was always calling to check up on things and would be there in a flash if anything was needed. What Carissa didn’t know was the grudges Brianna could actually hold against her for something that shouldn’t have happened. It had been storming out that day, the day the accident came, the day Daniel was killed. Something that Carissa could never forget. Carissa had been told to watch her brother that night as they were going to be in the office late. Of course Carissa agreed like usual. Her brother had asked to go to his friends house that was just down the street so she said he could go and she stood on the porch as he walked off towards his friends house.
In order to get to his friends house he had to cross the street and as he was crossing the street she yelled out to him to be careful and have fun, he had turned then to wave good bye to her and that was when neither of them were actually looking. A car struck him right there. Hit and run, but that was the last smile she saw of her brother. He was hit and left to die in the middle of the street. By the time Carissa called the police and got down there he was barely alive. The guy had completely ran him over without even stopping to help, something that could have saved his life. His last words were not to blame herself, to go have fun and live her life for him as he wouldn’t make it’. Carissa held him while he died, the paramedics didn’t even get there in time to try to save him.
When her mother got home this was when everything changed. She beat the living hell out of Carissa leaving her barely conscious and with bruises all over her body and Carissa’s wrist broken. Her mother blamed Carissa for his death, that it was her responsibility that he should be safe. She got kicked out of the house the next day with nowhere to go. She was a wreck to start with and she then went to her cousins, who lived near them though she was very close to and they were unlike her parents and they took her in. They nursed her back to health but she was by far stable. They put her in many different counseling programs and other programs that would help her get over the grief of losing her brother.
They gave up on her though when she started lashing out at everyone, hurting herself and the people around her and sent her off to Darlington Academy, a place that they had heard was good and was far away from everything that happened, they had told her that it would be a fresh start. It wasn’t for her though, her parents tracked her down, left her death threatening messages, everything. She couldn’t even talk other own brothers in fear of her mother and father hurting her once again. She didn’t do anything at school and slowly stopped eating all together. One of the teachers at the school noticed and hospitalized her for anorexia and got her help for her anger problems.
Carissa was scared of life pretty much at this time but she found refuge in music that she had grown up with, began listening to it again, playing an instrument, singing, she got over most of her grief through music as it helped her cope. Her brothers words came back to her and she was able to live once again. She had downfalls though, many actually, because her parents continued to haunt her through there words, and there phone calls. They always seemed to find a way to hurt her again. And she could do nothing to stop that. Carissa got in touch with her brothers again and she went and stayed with her oldest brother during the summer but she relied on her friends a lot now. She went through life day by day because of what happened though she figures as long as she has goals in life she can achieve a better life then she started out with, she just had to learn how.
RPG Sample:
Kiya stumbled down towards pebble beach. She had left her crutches. She didn’t care if she was walking on her cast for her leg. She didn’t care that it send immense pain right through her whole body to do so. She didn’t let it show. She was already crying anyways. What did it matter. Pain was better to cry over then getting hurt the way she did. It was actually a better point to look at over what just happened. She hated Devin..she hated him. He fucking did it again. He went and cheated on her. Why did she even trust him in the first place, why give him another chance. He didn’t deserve it at all. Because then she just ends up like she was before hurt and trusting nobody. Normally she would turn to bailey for this but she cant even do that as Bailey was screwing her over just as much as devin was though that hurt more then what devin did. That had left her heart torn to pieces. She had finally been able to trust someone again. Finally able to get over what had happened and smile and be happy and now it was snatched away again.
She cant even figure a reason as to why this happened. She didn’t do anything. And she sat there through it all while there going at it behind her back. Why didn’t Devin have at least some sort of heart and break up with her before he decided to go with someone else. Slowly more and more regret sunk in as she moved on. She made al the wrong choices, becoming friends with bailey, ever going out with Devin. None of this would have happened if she had left devin alone. Bailey was the only person she really cared about, really could trust fully. Now could she ever trust anyone again. She had been closer to bailey then anyone else she knew and she thought he was just as close but apparently not. He seemed more interested in Devin then actually keeping there friendship. Now there friendship was lost and she didn’t even think it would ever be coming back again.
Falling to the ground she clutched her stomach tightly. She hurt. It wasn’t something she had felt before. It was a pain that wouldn’t go away. She would be scarred from this forever. She had told Bailey she had wanted to meet him here and to come. She had even made it sound friendly. But did she even want to see him. She didn’t want him crying. But she did. He deserved to get hurt just as much as she was. As he was doing this to her. He was making her in so much pain she couldn’t move on. She was lost without Bailey but she wouldn’t go back to him. He would just hurt him again. She had already made the mistake of trusting Devin again. She didn’t think more people deserved second chances. She already knew she wouldn’t get through this so how could she get through yet another regret. She regretted her life. She hated it, she hated it all.
Though before even though she had to do everything she had Bailey to fall on. Bailey to come and spend time with her, have sleep overs with, laugh with him but its changed. She didn’t even think she could look at him anymore knowing what he did. Sleeping with Devin. God how worse could it get. She didn’t even want to think about it because she knew if then she wouldn’t even be able to speak. Gulping in the fresh air she tried to settle herself down but it wouldn’t work. She could barely breath. Why couldn’t she survive without bailey. Why did it have to be bailey that devin was fooling around with. Why her best friend. She wouldn’t have to deal with so much pain if it wasn’t for the fact that it had been bailey.
Fuck she had that feeling that Devin wasn’t to be trusted again. But she had thought he had changed. Honestly if it had just been that devin had slept around with some random person she would have been able to handle it better. But once she had found out it had been with bailey it changed everything. It was like she had been swallowed into a black pit and to never come out while rocks continually crushed her body. Crumbling into a ball she rocked herself back and forth trying to get herself to breath. Trying to make the pain go away. But it was etched in her for life. Once learning though that this was happening she wasn’t sure how Bailey could keep this such a secret, be so nice to her and friendly and yet be doing this. Didn’t he ever think she would find out, did he ever think about that he would end up loosing her. Or did he just not care. She had no answers anymore. She just wanted to disappear right now. Maybe then bailey would realize just how much he has actually lost.
She cant even figure a reason as to why this happened. She didn’t do anything. And she sat there through it all while there going at it behind her back. Why didn’t Devin have at least some sort of heart and break up with her before he decided to go with someone else. Slowly more and more regret sunk in as she moved on. She made al the wrong choices, becoming friends with bailey, ever going out with Devin. None of this would have happened if she had left devin alone. Bailey was the only person she really cared about, really could trust fully. Now could she ever trust anyone again. She had been closer to bailey then anyone else she knew and she thought he was just as close but apparently not. He seemed more interested in Devin then actually keeping there friendship. Now there friendship was lost and she didn’t even think it would ever be coming back again.
Falling to the ground she clutched her stomach tightly. She hurt. It wasn’t something she had felt before. It was a pain that wouldn’t go away. She would be scarred from this forever. She had told Bailey she had wanted to meet him here and to come. She had even made it sound friendly. But did she even want to see him. She didn’t want him crying. But she did. He deserved to get hurt just as much as she was. As he was doing this to her. He was making her in so much pain she couldn’t move on. She was lost without Bailey but she wouldn’t go back to him. He would just hurt him again. She had already made the mistake of trusting Devin again. She didn’t think more people deserved second chances. She already knew she wouldn’t get through this so how could she get through yet another regret. She regretted her life. She hated it, she hated it all.
Though before even though she had to do everything she had Bailey to fall on. Bailey to come and spend time with her, have sleep overs with, laugh with him but its changed. She didn’t even think she could look at him anymore knowing what he did. Sleeping with Devin. God how worse could it get. She didn’t even want to think about it because she knew if then she wouldn’t even be able to speak. Gulping in the fresh air she tried to settle herself down but it wouldn’t work. She could barely breath. Why couldn’t she survive without bailey. Why did it have to be bailey that devin was fooling around with. Why her best friend. She wouldn’t have to deal with so much pain if it wasn’t for the fact that it had been bailey.
Fuck she had that feeling that Devin wasn’t to be trusted again. But she had thought he had changed. Honestly if it had just been that devin had slept around with some random person she would have been able to handle it better. But once she had found out it had been with bailey it changed everything. It was like she had been swallowed into a black pit and to never come out while rocks continually crushed her body. Crumbling into a ball she rocked herself back and forth trying to get herself to breath. Trying to make the pain go away. But it was etched in her for life. Once learning though that this was happening she wasn’t sure how Bailey could keep this such a secret, be so nice to her and friendly and yet be doing this. Didn’t he ever think she would find out, did he ever think about that he would end up loosing her. Or did he just not care. She had no answers anymore. She just wanted to disappear right now. Maybe then bailey would realize just how much he has actually lost.
Celebrity Basis: Becky Lou Filip
Other:-editedbytheadmin-
